Esthershouse

Just as it took courage for Queen Esther to go before the King without an invitation, so does it take courage to leave even an abusive situation. I am an example of the good things that can happen afterward. I spent too many years believing those statements that I was a total failure and it happened because, first I prayed a lot and I changed my attitude about myself! As long as I thought I was a failure, I was. When I remembered, and believed, that with God's help I can do all things, my life began to change. Doors opened and I walked right in.

When I am reminded of all that I did to 'keep the peace', that passive, walk-on-me I'm a doormat frame of mind, I am disgusted by the times I did not speak up for myself. As some of you know, any word can cause things to get worse and we learn to walk on eggshells. I gave myself away trying to please someone else and it never worked. Each of us is special to the Lord; He doesn't look at our warts and faults, He sees our potential. He knows what we are capable of and we need to reminded often.

I allowed an early divorce to mark me as not worthy and this brought on a deep sense of failure. Seems that I forgot why I left that marriage, to protect myself and my four-month-old son. Back then I knew only two people who were divorced, so you can see that it was a no-no.

I realize now that we can never be all that we can be as long as we live in stress and strife. Life is too short to carry all that baggage, so let's learn ways that you, like me, can enjoy a better life, one that is rewarding, a challenge and let each of strive to be the one that God sees in us.